In the arms of an Angel

May 15th, 2008 by lovingchin

Angel

Spend all your time waiting
for that second chance
for a break that would make it okay
there’s always one reason
to feel not good enough
and it’s hard at the end of the day
I need some distraction
oh beautiful release
memory seeps from my veins
let me be empty
and weightless and maybe
I’ll find some peace tonight

  in the arms of an angel
fly away from here
from this dark cold hotel room
and the endlessness that you fear
you are pulled from the wreckage
of your silent reverie
you’re in the arms of the angel
may you find some comfort there

  so tired of the straight line
and everywhere you turn
there’s vultures and thieves at your back
and the storm keeps on twisting
you keep on building the lie
that you make up for all that you lack
it don’t make no difference
escaping one last time
it’s easier to believe in this sweet madness oh
this glorious sadness that brings me to my knees

In the arms of an angel
fly away from here
from this dark cold hotel room
and the endlessness that you fear
you are pulled from the wreckage
of your silent reverie
you’re in the arms of the angel
may you find some comfort there
you’re in the arms of the angel
may you find some comfort here

Marriage Vows

April 19th, 2008 by lovingchin

RUSS / CHIN, today I
become your (wife/husband) and you become my (husband/wife). I
will strive to give you the best of myself, while accepting you the way you
are. I promise to respect you as a whole person with your own interests,
desires, and needs, and to realize that those are sometimes different, but no
less important than my own. I promise to work by your side to achieve the
things we value and dream of, and to savor our time together. I promise to keep
myself open to you, to let you in to my innermost fears and feelings, secrets
and dreams. I promise to grow along with you, to be willing to face change as
we both change, keeping our relationship alive and exciting. And finally, I
promise to love you in good times and in bad, with all I have to give and all
that I am, in the only way I know how — completely and forever. I pledge to
you all of these things from the bottom of my heart for the rest of our lives.

Scorpio

October 25th, 2007 by lovingchin

Scorpio
The Scorpion

Scorpio Image

October 23 - November 21

The eighth sign of the zodiac is concerned with:
* birth, life, death, sensuality
* passion, pushing boundaries of discovery
* regeneration, transformation, metamorphosis
* finance, investments, wills, inheritance
* hidden matters, secrets, taboos, magic
* collective unconscious, defense systems
* social revolution, reformation, change

Elemental Quality

Scorpio is the fixed water sign of the zodiac. It can be likened to
still waters run deep. The relentless power of water to penetrate
and transform even the hardest rocks is an excellent metaphor through
which to understand the driving passion of the Scorpionic
personality. Just as stalactites and stalagmites cannot be prevented
from growing, once started, Scorpio cannot easily be deflected from
his or her purpose.

Spiritual Goal

To learn the meaning of selfless love.

The Scorpionic Personality

These are the general personality traits found in people who are
typical of Scorpio. An unhappy or frustrated Scorpio may display some
of the not-so-attractive traits.

Positive Negative
* Self-critical * Self-destructive
* Penetrating * Ruthless
* Investigative * Overbearing
* Passionately caring * Suspicious
* Protective * Jealous
* Tenacious * Possessive
* Magnetic * Dangerous
* Dynamic * Quick-tempered
* Probing * Obsinate
* Emotional * Moody
* Sensual * Sadistic
* Compassionate * Insulting
* Concerned * Secretive
* Unshockable * Intolerant
* Intense concentration * Cunning
* Understands failings * Vindictive

Secret Scorpio

Inside anyone who has strong Scorpionic influences is a person who
is intractable and impenetratable, so the secret Scorpio usually
remains a secret. All Scorpios like to keep their true nature as hidden
as possible. Astrologically, a Scorpio is said to be at one or other of
three stages of evolution.

A "stage one" Scorpio exercises power through emotion and
instinct. This Scorpio is symbolized by the scorpion, an insect more
likely,
in the end, to sting itself than others.

The "stage two" exercises power through the intellect. This
Scorpio is symbolized by the golden eagle — a bird that soars higher
than
any other.

At the final stage of evolution, Scorpio exercises power through love. This Scorpio is symbolized by the dove of peace.

SCORPIO AND CANCER This can be a rewarding combination. Cancer
  is the passive partner, but there’s plenty of combustible material to catch
  fire from Scorpio’s abundant passions. The heat in the bedroom will help cool
  off disputes that can arise between two jealous people. Scorpio offers strength
  and protectiveness, which is just what clinging, insecure Cancer is looking
  for. In turn, Cancer is affectionate, generous, loving, and devoted—all
  that Scorpio wants. These two get along together like bread and jam.

ALL I ASK OF YOU…

January 19th, 2007 by lovingchin
No more talk of darkness 
Forget these wide-eyed fears 
I'm here 
Nothing can harm you 
My words will warm and calm you 
Let me be your freedom 
Let daylight dry your tears 
I'm here 
With you, beside you 
To guard you and to guide you 

Say you love me every winter morning
Turn my head with talk of summertime 
Say you need me with you now and always 
Promise me that all you say is true 
That's all I ask of you 

Let me be your shelter 
Let me be your light 
You're safe 
No one will find you 
Your fears are far behind you 

All I want is freedom 
A world with no more night 
And you 
Always beside me 
To hold me and to hide me 
Then say you'll share with me one love, 
One lifetime 
Let me lead you from your solitude 
Say you need me with you, 
Here beside you 
Anywhere you go, let me go too 
that's all I ask of you 

Say you'll share with me one love, one lifetime 
Say the word and I will follow you 
Share each day with me, 
Each night, each morning 
Say you love me (You know I do) 
Love me 
That's all I ask of you 

Anywhere you go, let me go too 
Love me 
That's all I ask of you


mAyBe !Ts YoU…

November 10th, 2006 by lovingchin

How can I begin to explain what my heart wants you to know


I stumble over my words and can’t express it even though,
You make my world revolve around a picture perfect dream
That in itself is more I know than maybe what it seems.

Gathering the many thoughts of you I write it out in verse
I have fallen victim of the final soul mates curse.
To be in love and be apart is the hardest thing to do
I wish for a time that I can spend more eternity with you.

And though you tell me patience is a virtue I should learn
Its not the being impatient part that holds to my concern
Its the distance that we strive to close each and every day
It’s knowing that you want me and care for me the same way.

It’s the way you’ve shown me how to smile no matter what the time
The way my heart has found a way to say to you in rhyme
The way you always seem to know exactly what to say
Oh how I wish that in my heart forever you would stay

I know that we have just begin this journey of our soul
But I had to let you know how you care has made me whole
I had to make it clear to you that what I sense is fate
My heart wants you to know now, before it is too late

That when you feel you’re ready to journey down this road
I’ll help you carry burdens, I’ll half the heavy load
The next step we take together for all the world to see
That I was made just for you and you were made for me.

Me, My SeLf & ChIn

July 21st, 2006 by lovingchin

I AM ME

In all the world, there is no one else exactly like me
Everything that comes out of me is authentically me
Because I alone chose it - I own everything about me
My body, my feelings, my mouth, my voice, all my actions,
Whether they be to others or to myself - I own my fanatasies,
My dreams, my hopes, my fears - I own all my triumphs and
Successes, all my failures and mistakes
Because I own all of Me, I can become intimately acquainted with me -
By so doing I can love me and be friendly with me in all my parts - I know
There are aspects about myself that puzzle me, and other
Aspects that I do not know - but as long as I am
Friendly and loving to myself, I can courageously
And hopefully look for solutions to the puzzles
And for ways to find out more about me - However I
Look and sound, whatever I say and do, and whatever
I think and feel at a given moment in time is authentically
Me - If later some parts of how I looked, sounded, thought
And felt turn out to be unfitting, I can discard that which is
Unfitting, keep the rest, and invent something new for that
Which I discarded - I can see, hear, feel, think, say, and do
I have the tools to survive, to be close to others, to be
Productive to make sense and order out of the world of
People and things outside of me - I own me, and
Therefore I can engineer me - I am me and
I AM OKAY

Ahyahyahy… In Luv…

November 17th, 2005 by lovingchin

If I place my heart in your hand will you keep it safe for me?
Will you cherish, love and protect it and treat it compassionately?

I trusted another with its keep, once a long time ago,
He mishandled it… dropped it and broke it… fortunately, not irreparably so.

I picked it up and took it home and hid it away for awhile,
It was so damaged… nearly destroyed… very sensitive and fragile.

I was able to put it back together, but it has never been the same,
It’s still too fragile to trust to anyone, who plays an unfair game.

It’s way to delicate to be mistreated, or tossed to and fro,
And until I met you, my friend, I was afraid to let it go.

I’m beginning to think it is possible, to expose it again- to love,
If the person that I entrust it with treats it gently…. like a dove.

Although it appears the same as all others, it’s from a special lot,
It may not seem distinctive to you, but it’s the only one I’ve got.

So, are you able to keep my heart safe? I know it’s a lot to ask,
Be honest, if you can’t promise at this time ….you may not desire the task.

I’ll just keep hoping the time will come… all good things usually do.
I’ve learned to be patient, and I’ll recognize the moment…

I should give my heart to you.

HIM (o’._,’o)

November 11th, 2005 by lovingchin

One day I met this man
So different from the rest
Always trying to tell me
That HE was the very best

We’d give each other grief
Bantering back and forth
How was I to know that day
My life would changed its course

Then we’d talk for hours
Of our wishes, hopes and dreams
And then I started to wonder
If he’s really what he seems

He told me of his life
The good times and the bad
He only wanted happiness
And was tired of being mad

He asked me for a chance
To show what he could be
So why was I so terrified
And why did he pick me

My mind sent out the warnings
But my heart already knew
This man could make me happy
At the things he’d say and do

He promised to be good to me
And promised to be kind
So why was it so difficult
For my heart to change my mind

It was then I realized
He offered me a dream
Something no one ever could
at least that’s how it seemed

So do I put my faith in him
After all he’s just a man
Can he keep his promise
Or is there some master plan

Surely I can’t blame him
For what the rest have done
Do I give him the chance to hurt me
Or do I turn around and run

I want so much for others to know
This man who makes me feel
The warmth and love inside my heart
And to know this man is real…

To be continue….

I nEvEr DiD bReAk My PrOmIsE…

October 21st, 2005 by lovingchin

I shall be here for you always
If ever you do decide to call
We were still friends 
If you should care to recall

What reasons could there be
You have chosen to ignore
As a friend I can be reached
You had many times before

I continue trying to reach you
As I hoped to keep in touch
Am I supposed to just forget
When we shared so much

If you turned your back on me
Have the decency to explain
I never did break my promise
As your friend I shall remain

Pareparehas lang sila… ;-(

October 14th, 2005 by lovingchin
All boys are the same
they love to play
childish games
they never know when
to change

theyll take your heart
and then break it apart

theyll say i love you
but never mean it
from the start

theyll lead you on
then let you go
for some other hoe

so what do you do
when they do you
wrong, you sit, you cry, you
shout, and pout,
cause you dont
know what there love is all about

but from expierences i been through
i learned not to fall so hard
or fall in love
fast because
before you know it he’ll
quickly become your past

so when they do you wrong
try not to care so much
try to forget about his hand touch
dont cry or pout
stay strong
and try not to hold on
for oh so long